I blogged T.O.D.A.Y @ 18:48

what the heck.

i hated this kind of feeling which i will have once in a while. when u feel damn irritable, when u refuse to talk to anybody, when u just want to go home and stay in your room and probably sleep through, when u dun feel like eating, when u have low mood. depression.

it is both depressing and peeving for me now. well basically, the roster planner who is in charge of planning which wards we are covering has decided to move me out of my current ward to cover some other wards as someone is going on leave. well that's actually perfectly fine, IF:

1) it was rostered and pre-planned right from the beginning of the month or preceding month - and i thought this should be so isn't it? people planned their leave early and was/should already be made known b4 the roster is out.

but no this wasn't the case.

2) the affected party (aka ME) is being told personally beforehand. but guess what, no emails were sent to me; no phonecall was made to me; in fact i have to find it out myself today when i checked the intranet incidentally.

3) the covering of other wards is made more realistic. but guess what, as if moving me to the other ward isn't shocking enough for me, i discovered that from next week onwards, i am supposed to cover ward X from 19 to 26 Nov; ward Y from 27 to 30 Nov; and ward Z from 1 to 4 Dec!!! imagine covering 4 different places within a month. what the heck! i am not a locum mo moving around covering people who are taking exams, giving birth, falling sick, going holiday, going conference, collapsing, dying, AWOLing etc.

and that already happened when i first entered this posting! i covered 2 different wards in 3 days. so guess what, i am going to cover 6 different teams within this month. bloody hell.

this has been a very unpleasant experience for me. i first chose this place to experience the working life here, but i think the choice is pretty obvious for now.

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i have decided that i have 3 choices:
1) talk and complain about my displeasure to the roster planner.
2) email and complain about my displeasure to the roster planner.
3) email and complain about my displeasure to the roster planner, cc my clinical supervisor and cc the head of department

so which path should i take - bearing in mind the consequence that follows, and that i am a new MO who just joined the department for 2 weeks.